I had a dream last night that I was working in another city in a highrise building on the 5th floor. Every morning I would take the elevator and it would go past the fifth floor before I realized it wasn’t stopping and I pressed the button and ended up on the 8th floor. So every day, I would ride up to the 8th floor, let the doors open, press the button, and ride back down to the fifth floor. One day as the elevator doors opened to the 8th floor, I thought to myself, “maybe I should just check out the 8th floor and see what it’s about..” So I stepped out of the elevators into a hallway which led to a flight of stairs that took me down to a sandy beach where everyone was talking, laughing and frolicking in the water! I walked down to the beach and stood there looking around and I remember thinking, could I really have this for myself? And then I woke up.
I’ve been doing some reflecting, and this past year has been a rough one, relationship-wise, work-wise and otherwise. I’m so ready for some relaxation, calmness and stability. Adventure, yes, maybe. but just a little. Wishing the best year ahead for all my friends and family.
The truth is we’re all actors on the stage. And some of us are just bigger drama queens than others. Having said that, today, on this first day of 2015, I would just like to say, there is more to life than being afraid, there is more for you, even if you went down a deep, dark, black hole and had to climb back out only to fall in again, maybe deeper than the time before, but there is more. There is more than having to live one day at a time so afraid of a substance or other things that have no power over you, only the power you have given to it or them. And there’s a way better life than standing up or posting on Facebook that you have one more year that you have been free of the demon rum, or whatever demon got you to begin with. That’s not an accomplishment. That’s an obsession. And that is no way to live. Happy New Year, everyone. Wishing you the best sober or not sober year yet.
I just have to say that while I still love all the Hangover movies, they totally stole the premise from Go, which was made in the 90’s, was actually a much better movie, had a more complicated storyline, less mainstream-friendly, and was much more interesting. i’ve been wanting to say this for a long time. This is my first blog post. Thank you for listening.